I have the entire spectrum of humanness existing intensely in my world right now simultaneously - life and death, joy and pain, wonder and fear. I want to write here purely. I want to write what is in my heart and mind and soul irrelevant of who may or may not be reading. I want to let loose the mystery, the treasures, the wisdom, the confusion, the fear, the pain, the joy, the fun, the ecstasy, the wonder of my life. I want to say so much right now, and nothing is landing on the screen like I feel it. *sigh*